Carter Timbel
An Inefficient Feeding Mechanism

I hooked a fish on the Touchet River. Someone had already caught it. The hinge of its jaw was torn on the left side. Connection tissue dangled between the upper teeth and lower. The healing was complete but it could never be called repair. The side of the mouth leaked. I didn't like to look at it. I still don't often think about it.

'Probably an inefficient feeding mechanism.'

I didn't look too long. I removed my hook from the fish's nose where my nymph hooked it. I project the action of 'hooking' the fish onto my spun fly- a dirty and loveworn Hare's Ear- because I don't want to be mean to fish, or to myself. When I pulled the hook out, backwards, blood oozed from the spot. This will heal in no time, I told myself.

The fish was slimy in my wet palms, and slipped a little as it moved. I looked at its good side. Pretty fish. The ooze from its nose was on my hands. My hands covered in dilute fish blood, I let it go.

He didn't swim away very quickly. He sank behind a rock and idled with fins akimbo. The current wasn't very strong and he stayed at the tip of my left boot. I wonder whether he later died.

I'm a catch and release fisherman because I'm afraid of killing fish.